It’s been awhile. I have been exploring different types of social media and I really appreciate more and more people taking risks and putting themselves out there. The spotlight is tricky. It’s hard to know what people want and at the end of the day you have to do things for yourself.
I’m always willing to chat or listen or give advice because I’ve been down the dark paths and it’s shitty. I try to attack everyday and leave an impact on each and every day because from my point of view that’s the only way to go about things.
I’m home for a month, so I figured I would do some writing to keep my brain engaged and continue to learn more about myself and others. I legitimately care about each and every one of you, but sometimes that gratitude is hard to express. One way I express myself is with my Spotify playlist. It’s grown to almost 300 songs, but having the ability to press shuffle and not trying to target one specific song is very valuable I think.
I’ve been working on the internet since I started my Twitter when I was 12. I’ve produced so much content that it wouldn’t be feasibly possible for someone to consume all my content. That’s ok. I don’t really expect anyone to listen and that’s what makes things fun.
Nowadays it’s hard to meet new people because a lot of people know my story. That’s not a bad thing, it’s just different. At the end of the day I put myself in a difficult situation and I have to come to terms with that and dig myself out of the hole I put myself in.
One of the influencers I follow is Gary Vee. I think he’s a fantastic example of someone that creates value out of thin air. I don’t consume all his media, but I think the fact that he puts out content every single day is very valuable.
It’s not easy to find things to post because as my roommate says, nothing is original. I beat the same drum everyday, but I think it can be inspiring for some people. I think people gravitate towards people that look like they have life figured out.
No one has life figured out. Not a single person in this whole world. That’s an overwhelming thought and when you realize you’re in complete control of your own existence and future it can create chaos and hysteria.
We live in the future, but that’s hard for people to accept. The millenial generation has taken over and the older generation has to come to terms with passing the reigns to the younger generation. I’m just one voice in the sea of millions.
I very much value the support system that helped me through difficult times. I don’t want to name names because I don’t like the idea of being exclusive, I like to imagine people as working together to solve bigger problems.
I can come across as intense, but I don’t think that’s a bad thing. That’s just who I am and I love talking to all kinds of people from all walks of life. That’s one of the best parts on the internet; you can find your people everywhere and anywhere.
It’s important to realize that social media is a facade; things aren’t as peachy as they look but if you focus on the good in life things just seem to fall in place.
I’m a classic overthinker and I tend to read too deeply into things that aren’t there. That’s ok. I’m comfortable with who I am and who I’ve evolved into. It’s easy to get caught up in worry, but when you take a step back from a toxic situation it’s easy to see how beautiful things are.
Over this break I’ll be taking care of my grandma, Omie. She’s a very inspiring person because she believes in me and the new generation. I think people give up their families too quick. I’m very blessed to have a family that continues to support me even though I’ve failed time and time again.
I don’t look at my failures as bad though, and that’s a hard transition to make. I’ve been called all sorts of names, but you can’t let that phase you. You can’t let someone get so deep in your head. Or you can, it all depends on who’s information that you subscribe to.
Good luck and God bless,